Tired

And again, I am tired. Although why is completely beyond me. I've ended up getting myself involved in too many things again - editorial team for The Beaver, Secretary for various societies, Theatre Officer... and oh, there's all the bliddy work that's piling up as well. Regardless, I really like having lots of stuff to do. But I'm trying to avoid the big careers rush that everyone is starting to get into, applying for internships and the like. Tony had some big Morgan Stanley interview thing that was six hours long and seemed really horrible - and I'm thinking whether or not I want the same? Is it really essential to do what every other bliddy person around you is doing? Last year I really got caught with the crowd - I even attended a bliddy Goldman Sachs thing - before I came to LSE I didn't even know what investment banking was, let alone know of the existance of Goldman Sachs, and today I saw myself slowly scouring the GS website - which franking is really, really depressing. I don't know what I want to do in my future, but it already feels like that it's been decided for me. Maybe that's why I'm so busy, trying to be too busy to simply miss all the internship deadlines and then not get an internship, and then be happy that I didn't.