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I think I like Jennifer. But I think, in fact I think I know that she doesn't feel the same way. But then my life has so far been full of disappointments. So screw it.

Bah Humbug

Worst. Christmas. Ever. My mum just doesn't know when to stop.

Hmph

Whenever I'm in London, or Bath, for that matter, I always complain about London's superiority - there always being something to do in London, well in Bath I tend to lounge about doing nothing and writing blog posts. But Sunday night I was walking home at 2am and I saw something I had never seen in London - stars. The burning gas type. I could pick out quite a few constellations. And to be honest, that beats any gig or social or arcade that London can throw at me.

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Today was pretty horrible. I got into another big argument will Bill - the kid is practically out of control, but I felt really bad, and then finally my mum decided to actually go back to China to 'look for my dad' - as if they could afford it. I am constantly really worried about the situation of my family and it is getting practically unbearable. My father is constant silent, and it is virtually impossible to get a hold of him, let alone talk to him. The last time I talked to him was about six to seven weeks ago, which in of itself is pretty disturbing and worrying. Regardless, I am trying my best, although it feels weird to tell Bill what to do, and therefore I'm not going to anymore, I feel that as long as we're quiet for the remainder of the holidays my mum may regain some of her sanity.

Regardless

A really busy month has passed since I last blogged - it's been so busy, and I kind of really enjoyed it. I promised myself this year that I'd go see a lot more shows - and I don't think I disappointed myself, haha. Regardless, it's been great. I'm the new Tech editor of the Beaver and I'm really busy with that, as well as other societies, and playing at the Christmas Concert last night. It's been really great. My PC is still dead (there's a long saga that I really just don't have the energy to repeat), but I'm really loving my Macbook and I'm seriously considering upgrading to a Macbook Pro - it'll be about £500 but it should be worth every penny.

I'm so busy though, it's tough sometimes just to pause and think. Although I'm starting to apply for these 'internship' things I'm not actually sure what to go for and therefore I'm really confused about what to do. Still, it's nice to just pause and type here. Now I'm going back to my Principles of Finance homework. Yay!

My baby has died

I really like mint tea. It's really nice. Unfortunately, it seems that the innards of my behemoth PC doesn't share the same appreciation that I do of mint tea, as I found out last Sunday when I accidentally spilt green tea inside my PC - although the fan on top of my Antec case helps circulation, unfortunately it doesn't help the case's waterproofness. Now my PC is dead. Sigh. I can't switch it on. I think the video card - the most expensive component (sigh) - is broken, but I will mess about with it some more just to be sure.

Edit: Just been on the PCGAMER forums, those guys are so supportive! They have just given me more hope! :D

Tired

And again, I am tired. Although why is completely beyond me. I've ended up getting myself involved in too many things again - editorial team for The Beaver, Secretary for various societies, Theatre Officer... and oh, there's all the bliddy work that's piling up as well. Regardless, I really like having lots of stuff to do. But I'm trying to avoid the big careers rush that everyone is starting to get into, applying for internships and the like. Tony had some big Morgan Stanley interview thing that was six hours long and seemed really horrible - and I'm thinking whether or not I want the same? Is it really essential to do what every other bliddy person around you is doing? Last year I really got caught with the crowd - I even attended a bliddy Goldman Sachs thing - before I came to LSE I didn't even know what investment banking was, let alone know of the existance of Goldman Sachs, and today I saw myself slowly scouring the GS website - which franking is really, really depressing. I don't know what I want to do in my future, but it already feels like that it's been decided for me. Maybe that's why I'm so busy, trying to be too busy to simply miss all the internship deadlines and then not get an internship, and then be happy that I didn't.

Completly transparent

Yep. Living with Tony is really annoying. Not only can he be bliddy annoying and useless at times, but also he can be really frustrating, the man doesn't even know how to compromise, as well as look in the situation of other people. Still, the guy drives me nuts, but then again, apparently I'm extremely selfish, and he sees through me completely anyway so I don't know what the big problem is. Sigh, the guy can get really emotional, and it's really hard to talk to him when he simply refuses to budge from a position that is unfair for everyone.

Regardless, in other news, Addicted Geek reached half a million hits yesterday! I was well pleased, especially considering that I have not done any work regarding it for about a month now due to my lack on internets, but it's still good to know that people are still visiting my baby.

And there I was promising myself that I wouldn't force myself to post that often. But it's easier typing it here than to write it in my journal. Sigh.