Tuesday, 25 December 2007

Bah Humbug

Worst. Christmas. Ever. My mum just doesn't know when to stop.

Wednesday, 19 December 2007

Hmph

Whenever I'm in London, or Bath, for that matter, I always complain about London's superiority - there always being something to do in London, well in Bath I tend to lounge about doing nothing and writing blog posts. But Sunday night I was walking home at 2am and I saw something I had never seen in London - stars. The burning gas type. I could pick out quite a few constellations. And to be honest, that beats any gig or social or arcade that London can throw at me.

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Today was pretty horrible. I got into another big argument will Bill - the kid is practically out of control, but I felt really bad, and then finally my mum decided to actually go back to China to 'look for my dad' - as if they could afford it. I am constantly really worried about the situation of my family and it is getting practically unbearable. My father is constant silent, and it is virtually impossible to get a hold of him, let alone talk to him. The last time I talked to him was about six to seven weeks ago, which in of itself is pretty disturbing and worrying. Regardless, I am trying my best, although it feels weird to tell Bill what to do, and therefore I'm not going to anymore, I feel that as long as we're quiet for the remainder of the holidays my mum may regain some of her sanity.

Thursday, 6 December 2007

Regardless

A really busy month has passed since I last blogged - it's been so busy, and I kind of really enjoyed it. I promised myself this year that I'd go see a lot more shows - and I don't think I disappointed myself, haha. Regardless, it's been great. I'm the new Tech editor of the Beaver and I'm really busy with that, as well as other societies, and playing at the Christmas Concert last night. It's been really great. My PC is still dead (there's a long saga that I really just don't have the energy to repeat), but I'm really loving my Macbook and I'm seriously considering upgrading to a Macbook Pro - it'll be about £500 but it should be worth every penny.

I'm so busy though, it's tough sometimes just to pause and think. Although I'm starting to apply for these 'internship' things I'm not actually sure what to go for and therefore I'm really confused about what to do. Still, it's nice to just pause and type here. Now I'm going back to my Principles of Finance homework. Yay!

Tuesday, 30 October 2007

My baby has died

I really like mint tea. It's really nice. Unfortunately, it seems that the innards of my behemoth PC doesn't share the same appreciation that I do of mint tea, as I found out last Sunday when I accidentally spilt green tea inside my PC - although the fan on top of my Antec case helps circulation, unfortunately it doesn't help the case's waterproofness. Now my PC is dead. Sigh. I can't switch it on. I think the video card - the most expensive component (sigh) - is broken, but I will mess about with it some more just to be sure.

Edit: Just been on the PCGAMER forums, those guys are so supportive! They have just given me more hope! :D

Sunday, 28 October 2007

Tired

And again, I am tired. Although why is completely beyond me. I've ended up getting myself involved in too many things again - editorial team for The Beaver, Secretary for various societies, Theatre Officer... and oh, there's all the bliddy work that's piling up as well. Regardless, I really like having lots of stuff to do. But I'm trying to avoid the big careers rush that everyone is starting to get into, applying for internships and the like. Tony had some big Morgan Stanley interview thing that was six hours long and seemed really horrible - and I'm thinking whether or not I want the same? Is it really essential to do what every other bliddy person around you is doing? Last year I really got caught with the crowd - I even attended a bliddy Goldman Sachs thing - before I came to LSE I didn't even know what investment banking was, let alone know of the existance of Goldman Sachs, and today I saw myself slowly scouring the GS website - which franking is really, really depressing. I don't know what I want to do in my future, but it already feels like that it's been decided for me. Maybe that's why I'm so busy, trying to be too busy to simply miss all the internship deadlines and then not get an internship, and then be happy that I didn't.

Monday, 22 October 2007

Completly transparent

Yep. Living with Tony is really annoying. Not only can he be bliddy annoying and useless at times, but also he can be really frustrating, the man doesn't even know how to compromise, as well as look in the situation of other people. Still, the guy drives me nuts, but then again, apparently I'm extremely selfish, and he sees through me completely anyway so I don't know what the big problem is. Sigh, the guy can get really emotional, and it's really hard to talk to him when he simply refuses to budge from a position that is unfair for everyone.

Regardless, in other news, Addicted Geek reached half a million hits yesterday! I was well pleased, especially considering that I have not done any work regarding it for about a month now due to my lack on internets, but it's still good to know that people are still visiting my baby.

And there I was promising myself that I wouldn't force myself to post that often. But it's easier typing it here than to write it in my journal. Sigh.

Sunday, 21 October 2007

The Fifth Attempt

So here I am again, trying again to blog. Blogging is funny - it's gone on for so long now, and yet people are still doing it, regardless whether it's posting for days and days non-stop or whether they post three times every year. Still, this is my fifth attempt to start a blog on my own, my last four blogs ranged from the super-personal and actually really embarrassingly so when people find out about it (Discarded Coffee), to the relatively handsomely successful (Addicted Geek) to the try-to-do-everything ranging from podcasting to flickrmail to skypecasts (Chimpware) as well as the, well, parodies (A Small Communist Island). However, apart from Addicted Geek, which is now relatively successful enough to be stupid not to keep up (I have to pay server costs and everything), I don't really don't write anything on the other blogs. Still, I think the biggest problem with me and personal blogs is that well, they become unpersonal. Addicted Geek actually started off as a personal blog, but now I just end up putting news and articles and crap on there instead. I think the biggest problem is that I end up not bloggig for myself, but for other people. Still, every time I start a new blog it's because I'm worried about being older, going through a midlife crisis, and then not realizing how much I've accomplished, thus I really want to keep a record. (Even though I have a scrapbook and journal and the hundreds and hundreds of podcasts in my name) Therefore, here is the fifth blog. And therefore, from that, the easiest way to keep on blogging here is simply make this blog mine. Noone else will know about this, I am promising myself right now. Unless I want them to. Because I'm really close to them. Probably. And there will be no pressures, no fanboys asking me write another article, no annoying spam emails. Just me. Which is stupid because I am writing this as if I was talking to someone else.

So where am I right now? Second year. London School of Economics. BSc Accounting and Finance (just switched from BSc Buisness Maths and Stats, probably a good idea because I FUCKED UP maths and stats exams last year), which is a load of bullcrap, by the way, since all it is is 'here, we're giving you a degree, not so you can learn anything or develop personally, but so that you can go out and get a job when you're out.' Honestly, I'll probably be just as capable right now to do whatever shitty job I end up in out of university, it's just out of university I'll have a little piece of paper that says I'm capable of doing that shitty job. Life is a bitch, to be honest.

Regardless, because of my stupidly chaotic personality, as well as my passion for far-too-many-things to actually let me concentrate on just one thing, I'm ending up doing sixty thousand things on top of my degree. Working in the Quad Cafe just to prove to my Dad that I DON'T need him, he PISSES me off and I am franking ANNOYED, secretary of the Hummous society, for a purely alturistic reason that I LIKE HUMMOUS AND I WANT TO GET FREE HUMMOUS, as well as senior writer (and hopefully) editor of The Beaver, my SU paper, still a cool bunch of people, even if they all hate me for getting both their a) names and b) genders completely wrong.

As for the flat I'm living in, it was a mistake to be nice to Tony and let him stay with us, because now he is essentially the bitch of our house, not doing any of the work, and sits and complains, or complains that we're complaining, or complaining about us complaining about his complaining. Still, the house is nice, even if we DON'T HAVE ANY INTERNETS and is slowly driving me insane, due to the fact that the Orange Box is out and I preordered it a while ago, but I can't play Episode 2 because I don't have the internet to download the stupid game. Completed Bioshock last night, so now I don't have anything to bloody play until I get the internet.

Now, gym, maybe Apple store, to get a new 160GB iPod, even though eBay did remove my 60GB iPod post because it was stupid or something. Probably.

Remember Simon, there's no pressure to post on this again.